The Feeling

i just wrote this

words just came together on the page

its sloppy and unorganized

but its what i wanted

here goes

we all start somewhere

but i cannot rememeber

where i am or how i got here

i just cant seem to remember

i lost all emotions

no

i can still feel

the pain staking needles

that make my heart peel

i cannot sit nor can i stand

i float in my mind

wandering

wanting

for somebody to find

me and myself

the state i am in

cuz i cannot remember

where i have been

i want someone to know

actually i need someone instead

to understand how i feel

how many tears that ive shed

my mind is fluttered

with questions and doubts

of me failing

which i cannot let out

the feelings

so unclear

i just need someone to hear

to know that i fear

of things so dear

like love and affection

more like rejection

that makes my heart cold

i just need somone to hold

so that i can unfold

but for now im alone

still wandering the abyss

of clutter and confusion

still wanting

waiting

for that one person

to reach out their hand

and free me from the dark

so we can stand

not separate but one

not dread but fun

not walk but run

all could be done

with that one

but there is none

so i will wait longer

alone

alone

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